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4/29/2008 writing practiceSome should be colorful. Some should belong to me. Some I have chance to own. However...
I don't know if my choice is right. What I know is that I'm chasing my dream. A dream about contribution and return and beautiful life. Different individuals has their different methods to achieve their goal. Mine is the way I stand now. Although I don't know if it is correct, however, I have a dream, I will practice! I won't turn back no matter what will happen in the future. Many old tell me that China is better than US. Cuz living in China is more comfortable than any other foreign countries. Easy to communicate, familiar diet, similar culture and so on. Yeah! It is ture! No one can deny these fact! After all, it's my country. It's my motherland. How can I ignore the reality!? But, I just want to seek an opportunity. An opportunity to let me do something I really want to. All these things is my dream! One sentence I repeat numerous times "I believe I can fly!". It isn't only a title of a song for me. It means confidence and courage. In my eyes, a person can be great without perfect success. What's the most important is that he or she must have a valuble live. What live is valuble? Why I say that? Making contribution to the society, satisfied parents is the most essentail two lines. As for others, whatever. Two-year life in the South China University of Technology teach me some. Some time there is no need to care other's feeling. All I concerned is only my parents and some best friends. For other "things", what are those?! Ofcourse I never meant I'll become a person who is hard to get along with. But I absolutly will treat different people differently. Because they and me are not the same. I won't now I have to say that I don't want to paly with those "things" in the future. What I believe is far outweigh theirs. What they want are those which I don't want to mention. I know the reason why I have these thoughts is that I've already had what they don't have now. But It is the reason that they and me have entirely different dream.
People, reaposibility.
I think I lost so many in my collage life. May be it is suitable to use the phrase "give up", or the word "sacrifise". No reason to regret. All is my choice. Besides, some of them is not for my age. No sacrifice, no victory. I wish the sacrifice is worthy. 4/16/2008 faulty end but faultless start半年了……三次……结果……虽说还可以，不过……也不可称为理想……有些事……对于人来说，对于我来说比其他事重要，所以“舍”，所以自私一点，所以自我一点……因为生命中比自己重要的人……微乎其微……所以……干嘛在乎那么多无关紧要的过客……我，就是我，与人为善是没错，不过对人的不同还是有很大区别，一个人的旅程是艰苦的，但是大家能一起走的路也不会有什么大作为，个人的奋斗轨迹是不一样的，至于一有些人，我岂可与你们为舞，少跟我说将来会跟他们一起混，我看过，我明白，所以我努力去凌驾这种下层人，我的未来不能充斥那样的人，我明白这样的观点并不成熟，但这样的心气至少是要有的，这样的决心无论如何是不能少的，因为我相信我能飞！
实话说，我真的很鄙视……你们觉得有公家的车开……不用自己花油钱，不用自己养车，甚至吃饭都可以成为负担，诸如此类，吃公家的拿公家的用公家的很好么……很舒服么？……很安逸么……我想大概是因为这些是你们奋斗的结果，生不逢时，你们也很努力，很艰难，但是时代不好，你们所获得的就是这些，确实，也许这是你们应得的，但这些不应该再是我的欣羡，是，对于物质谁能没有欲望，私人住宅，蓝博基尼，天下美食，还有很多很多，穷奢极欲……但是，我要自己的，我要自己挣的——这些确是使我努力前行的动力，但终究只是一部分。
I am awfully sorry to you. But maybe it's too late. Just as I said: Apology has become nothing. Although I wanna express it to u every time, however, I am not able to do it for apology has become noting. I don't know if you still hate me. But you'd better do, because I deserve it. Some things, from the first meet to the last call, live in my heart. I won't forget these. Its feelings are so much. But now it is not the time...
Frankly speaking, I am a little confuse. Master considered to change his job many times in the past year. The reason he give is that an old is not harmony with army or a rock band. But drum is his love. Maybe it is time to wake up. After all, the number of people who can combine their interest and job perfectly is so poor. Despite of this, I will chase my dream consistently. Because I own the future. Future is whatever we make it. Hence, future is equal to wealth. Meanwhile, I have the chance to success. If it is difficult to define success, let's say some about failure. It's universally recongnized that Faliure give birth to Success. But I wanna paraphrase it. Failure is not try again. From what has been talked about above, I can safely draw the conclusion that my life can be brilliant because future belongs to me. There is one idea, only one idea I should hold--I believe I can fly!
It's over, contemporarily. Half a year, a not bad score. I've learned much. All I feel is that that is a faulty end but a faultless start at the moment when I check my score. 4/13/2008 ……唉……俗人一帮……不是一个层次的……这个年龄……就不能多给我一些梦想么……就不能多给我一些浪漫么……为什么一定要人那么实际……为什么一定要那样抹杀人的创意……因为你们经历过，我没经历过，在你们的年代是这样的，以你们的视角是这样的，我并不反感以一种经历，一种观点来对待，但是你们也许不懂我的态度，我的追求……实际上，这是一种不尊重…… 4/12/2008 2、3事ETS快点好么……
美利坚啊……
MIT，STANDFORD，YALE，HARVARD……
觉还算正常……
到底有多少人能一生都从事自己爱的事……连师父都……
腕子疼啊……傻……不知不觉就练多了……
高一、高二、高三……
我……
Command & Conquer……Give a command, then conquer one thing. Give again, conquer again. I need alert in my whole life for it's my engine.
I'm not confident that I can be consistent. Perhaps only for someone. Get myself in trouble again.
4/5/2008 杂念于一事……回到广州了，莫名的几分恐惧，因为就在下飞机的那一刻，我有一种莫名的解脱，一种不自主的兴奋，难道真的习惯了自己的生活么……
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当对不起变得如此苍白……
宽容就是匕首……血……就这样流着，一滴一滴……从骨头上生硬的擦过……我甚至能听到它们刮过骨头时刺耳、钻心的响声……每一声都在撕裂着我……这匕首……就这样……进、出、进、出……
是我放不下，还是我觉得不该放下，还是我怕别人说我因而不放下，还是怕放下了对方却不接受，抑或是放下了、对方也接受而我却不接受……
终于明白了，理解了……可是晚了……早干什么来着……
篱笆与钉子……
当对不起变得如此苍白……
我不配…… |
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